Metacognition: Kite Runner Essay

If you sawed open my head at the moment I was writing my essay, you'd probably have a seizure if you're epileptic. Or even if you're not. I swear, sometimes I think strobe lights are flashing and there is an entire rave in my head waiting to bring me off on a tangent or distract me. For this essay specifically, I sat down and powered out about half of it, and then my brain rave took off and I couldn't focus. Was this because I'm possibly/probably insane? Maybe. But I had just written about guilt, and failed attempts at helping Sohrab. I think that the time the little ravers in my head chose to act out was significant, seeing as this is the break where my essay goes from Amir's failures to Amir's awesomeness.
When I write, I can't sit down and write a whole essay, or even necessarily write in the order it's going to be in in the final essay. My thinking pattern is a scattered one. Is this effective? Sure, it gets done. Maybe it's not the most efficient method of thinking, but it's definitely the easiest for my brain to grasp. During the break I took from writing my essay, I actually was reading A Tree Grows in Brooklyn, which I think helped me not only to get my mind away for long enough that I could come back and focus without getting a brain overload, but it allowed me to focus on writing through reading another writer's work.
So is my writing style effective or efficient? Maybe not for others, but it is for me. I know how my brain works, so I can follow my train of thought until the final paper comes together, but it's probably hard for others to do the same, so that's definitely something I will work on in the future.
And now the ravers in my head are calling me away, so I can go not do my other homework. :)